I saw her,
Sitting at a distance gazing at me,
She was a reflection of what I could become,
She asked me what my fears were,
Why I was holding back,
Why it was taking longer,
Who do you want to be?
The beginning of the year always has lots of people making new years resolutions. People set out goals, objectives and even reset how they do things, the question is, do we ever stop and take a deep breath, ask ourselves what would happen to us if things did not turn out the way we wanted them to…then what next? Would we disappointed to the point of giving up on our dreams, would we rise like a phoenix and take lessons learned throughout the year and channel our energy to making things better, or would we look at it and be content on how things turn out and make other New Years Resolutions?
I have somehow been looking forward to writing this post. I wanted to share with you all what 2018 meant for me, what I have learned along the way and the person I have become.
My year did not start out on such a high note, back in November 2017, I was diagnosed with an Ovarian cyst, this was just but the beginning of my worries. With around three more doctors appointments, I was always panicked and at some point thought that I would lose it. Fortunately for me, I kept the faith and though sometimes skeptical, I began my year praying for my miracle. 11 months down the line, I received my miracle in September 2018 during what became my last appointment with my gynacologist. My cyst was completely gone!!!! I could not thank God enough, I am still grateful for this.
Passion and Moving on
My greatest strength has been following through with what I am passionate about. I am a go-getter, this has helped me push myself to the limit. For the last two years, I had a job I was so passionate about, I was happy by the fact that I was changing lives. Sadly, I was not experiencing any personal growth and to me, this was totally frustrating, it took me months to decide on whether I wanted to continue, the one thing I am certain for now and would probably advice myself months back would be…”Life is too short, and if there is no growth or fulfillment in your place of work, you got to pack up and move on”
But I guess that is easier said and done, and often there are so many things that we need to factor in. Word of advice, work on an exit strategy if you want to quit your job!!!!
The best thing happened to me when I decided to quit my job, I am currently self-employed, determine my schedule, more fulfilled and pursuing all my other passions at the same time? What else can a girl ask for? The hardest things for some of us is moving on, and for me, it took time and a lot of support from my family and friends, but I am glad I finally moved on.
Traveling and Making New Friends
Before I forget, I totally had no plan to travel to two amazing places that I traveled to, talk about meeting young people making a huge difference in their own capacity, making friends, learning about new cultures and doing business. From Rhino Refugee Settlement in Uganda to Accra in Ghana. (See, I told you plans can change). I am just amazed at how much young people are doing to change their communities and feel challenged to making bigger strides in 2019.
The most important thing is the fact amidst all the chaos I experienced in the last year, I conquered my fears and learned to move past that. But this would have never happened without all the support I had from my friends and family. Important: Keep your family and close friends closer.
I have found my passions, learned new things, persevered through pain and learned to differentiate what matters at the moment and what does not. In this new year, find yourself, your purpose and regardless of your current “chaos” define yourself and move past this.
Who do you want to be
I want to be that girl,
The one who lives life without fears,
The one does not fear to push for what she believes in,
The one who believes that it is here,
It can be done,
The one who no longer holds back,
The one who lives outside a box,
For she found herself,
In the dreams of a little girl,
A little girl with big dreams.
From me to you…May this year bring you the best that you have been dreaming about, make your resolutions, follow them through one at a time, and if things don’t turn out the way you wanted, remember there is also the fact that the Year can still SURPRISE YOU!!
Love and Hugs